Do you ever have trouble finding the silver lining? Perhaps there is no silver lining sometimes. Obviously so I mean there is so much suffering and death in the world but on the flip side there is so much joy and birth!
I'm struggling with this today. HAHA Sometimes I wonder why you guys torture yourselves by coming to my blog some days :-) I feel like I'm forever posting doom and gloom. (well not always but you know.. sometimes you see things that way when you are down)
I made a call to the Tribunal today. Silly me called from the Jeep while sitting in the Walmart parking lot. I was told that not only could it take a year but my ex-husband has yet to respond to the questions he was sent.
I barely made it off the phone with the lady before the tears started. I couldn't stop.
I am praying to forgive and for forgiveness because if I could've crawled through a phone line to Vancouver he'd have been in big trouble!
However, I know that everything has to happen in HIS time (Gods's time) and not my time. So, I'm talking myself out of my feelings of disappointment, sadness and regret. I will be watching my entire class enter the church this Sunday from a row that is not reserved. I have a heavy heart.
Perhaps so I can share with the others how special this is. Share with them that it is something to rejoice over and not expect because it doesn't always come easy. I don't know that anyone feels that way in my class mind you. I just keep thinking that I hope they appreciate the specialness of Sunday and how someone wishes they could be there with them and can't yet.
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But what a celebration it will be when it happens! I am praying for you!
Indeed Therese! Thank you! I think I will need to spend the entire night in the chapel and then some! I am so truly blessed with this journey even though I get sidetracked sometimes :-)
I can only imagine how frustrating it must be to have to wait, especially if your ex is being obstructive out of vengeance. Relationships can be so difficult! I will pray for you.
Stay strong in your faith Jules, do not loose heart. The Lord hears the cries of his beloved and you are one of His beloved.
I have a friend that always tells me "just say Jesus I trust you, Jesus I trust you". This immediate proclomation of faith in him lightens the heart and soul and brings peace to the spirit.
I will say my rosary for you tonight and will remember you in prayer always.
God bless
It is hard to remember that WE are not in charge...but, I feel your pain. I was there, many years ago...my ex did not respond. A letter from my pastor to the tribunal explaining that he wasn't likely to respond helped....I will keep you in my prayers.
Thank you all! And Daily Grace, I am taking your advice :-)
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