OK so I've been away from church for several years. I am desperately seeking my way back. I am desperately seeking faith, trust, devotion. I was reading yesterday. I do that alot :-) About confessing sins. I can do that no problem! Let me start a list... But then I read about repenting. That it doesn't necessarily mean you wont do it again but that you do not intend to do it again.
hmmm...
So, have you ever done something that you know is not good for you, you know it is harmful not only to your life but to Gods will but well.. you don't know if you are ready to give it up? Sounds crazy. But then I thought surely I am not the only person. I thought of alcoholics, drug addicts etc. I'm not speaking of addiction in this case but that was the initial matching game my mind played today. So, I'm not alone, not crazy.. that makes me feel somewhat better!
So, I'm humbly praying for the desire to be ready. Hows that for starters?
Baby steps!
2 comments:
the famous saying of St. Augustine's "Lord let me be chaste, but not yet", actually comes from him addressing this notion in his heart.
Yes, D'artagnan summed that up well. It's like St. Paul said, too, that our flesh and spirit are at odds with one another; we do things we know we ought not to do, under some strange compulsion; we don't do things that we know are right.
Keep up the good fight. Start with a well prayed Hail Mary, Full of Grace. The Lord is with thee. Blessed are you among women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners now, and at the hour of death. Amen.
Deo Gratias!
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