Saturday, October 10, 2009

Life




I've been reading and watching so much about abortions lately. It always makes me think of something that happened (or rather was said) to me when I was younger. I became pregnant with my first and second children when I was young, unmarried, undereducated and lost. I will never forget a family member asking me hadn't I ever heard of abortion when I was pregnant with my second child. This comment startled me, shocked me and I remember standing motionless in my Grandmothers back yard. I looked this elder in the eye and asked her if she had ever heard of murder.


Now, I was not raised in the Catholic faith. I did not view abortion the way I view it now. But.. I have a story that will help explain why I was so pro-life all those years ago.


I found out I was pregnant with my first child when I was still in high school. I was scared to death on so many levels. I just knew that my father would kick me out of the house, that I would be shamed, who knew what was happening with the father etc.


The topic of abortion did come up. I did not want to tell my parents and was working out the details of the abortion with the babies father.


I had a dream one night then about going to the abortion clinic. I have never been in one so I'm unsure how realistic it was but it felt very real to me in the dream. I remember the sounds to this day which I think might be somewhat unusual. It was a horrific dream. I dreamed of the people working in the clinic, the devices used, the sounds in the rooms, the feelings. I woke from that dream shaking, heart pounding and felt my baby move in my womb. I could not stop crying and called the babies father that day to tell him that I was not going to go through with it.


That was a turning point for me. I believe to this day that I received a divine message that night. I was really not far enough along to feel the movements of my baby. I know this now.


So, all the talk about abortion lately had me thinking so I figured why not post to my blog. You never know who might need to read what happened to me. Chosing life was such a blessing for me, my family and my child! And the experience was one that I will never forget.

3 comments:

allyouwhohope said...

Wow. That is absolutely beautiful! Thanks for sharing this story. You must have made the angels rejoice up in Heaven when you woke up and decided against abortion! It makes me tear up thinking about that!!

Glad to find your blog and looking forward to reading more!

Sarah - Kala said...

Thank you for sharing your story. AWesome.

Katie said...

I also got pregnant when I was in high school, I can empathize! My family is all pretty pro-life, but I did get a lot of comments about tying my tubes when I was pregnant with my third (and now I'm pregnant with my 4th, so I guess they know how I feel about that!)

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