Life

I've been reading and watching so much about abortions lately. It always makes me think of something that happened (or rather was said) to me when I was younger. I became pregnant with my first and second children when I was young, unmarried, undereducated and lost. I will never forget a family member asking me hadn't I ever heard of abortion when I was pregnant with my second child. This comment startled me, shocked me and I remember standing motionless in my Grandmothers back yard. I looked this elder in the eye and asked her if she had ever heard of murder.

Now, I was not raised in the Catholic faith. I did not view abortion the way I view it now. But.. I have a story that will help explain why I was so pro-life all those years ago.

I found out I was pregnant with my first child when I was still in high school. I was scared to death on so many levels. I just knew that my father would kick me out of the house, that I would be shamed, who knew what was happening with the father etc.

The topic of abortion did come up. I did not want to tell my parents and was working out the details of the abortion with the babies father.

I had a dream one night then about going to the abortion clinic. I have never been in one so I'm unsure how realistic it was but it felt very real to me in the dream. I remember the sounds to this day which I think might be somewhat unusual. It was a horrific dream. I dreamed of the people working in the clinic, the devices used, the sounds in the rooms, the feelings. I woke from that dream shaking, heart pounding and felt my baby move in my womb. I could not stop crying and called the babies father that day to tell him that I was not going to go through with it.

That was a turning point for me. I believe to this day that I received a divine message that night. I was really not far enough along to feel the movements of my baby. I know this now.

So, all the talk about abortion lately had me thinking so I figured why not post to my blog. You never know who might need to read what happened to me. Chosing life was such a blessing for me, my family and my child! And the experience was one that I will never forget.