Friday, October 30, 2009


I am having a really hard time with anxiety. This is the big reason why I am not working right now. I started having these "episodes" back in May (or was it March?) I was scared to death because I really thought something was wrong with me. The first episode was on my way to work one morning. I felt like I was going to pass out driving down the road. I called my husband, he came and picked me up and took me to the ER. They couldn't find anything wrong with me other than my blood pressure was very high. I went to my family doctor and they put me on high bloodpressure medicine and put me out of work for the week.

I struggled with these episodes until September 4th I believe. It was off and on at random times and various symptoms. I had dizziness, numbness, sometimes tingling, vision problems, racing heartbeat etc. They sent me for and MRI, an EEG and EKG, they did extensive bloodwork, referred me to a neurologist and put me out of work until September 30th. Total I think I had 2 or 3 ER visits and countless doctors visits. Nothing medically can be found.

I made an appointment with a neuropsychologist thinking I must be crazy. I surely felt crazy because I was definitely having these symptoms but according to every doctor there was absolutely nothing wrong with me! They put me on Zoloft which is something I never wanted to do but I have to honestly say that they episodes have dramatically decreased. That is until this week which leads me to believe they have something to do with my harmones.

I did however make myself go to the store for toilet paper :-) and some thread for sewing. Some WD40 for the elliptical and some milk.

I then made myself visit the Parish office because being the Queen of Procrastination I had still not turned in Brandon's CCD paperwork and today was the last day of the second week since I got it.

I then went to the 12:05 Mass which was lovely. However I found myself due to this anxiety wanting to leave the store before I had all my shopping done and an incredible urge to leave in the middle of Mass. I will shout from the rooftop when we get this figured out and I am back to normal!


Mary333 said...

I used to have terrible panic attacks when I was younger; these are frightening, especially while driving. They got so bad that I had trouble working. I will keep you in my daily prayers; I know the suffering of anxiety and panic attacks although it has lessened over the years. I always united this with Jesus' agony in the garden. May God bless you:)

Katie said...

I'm glad the zoloft is helping! I also have problems with anxiety (I have PTSD and GAD) so I definitely empathize. I'm hoping to get on something soon to help me manage, I see the psychiatrist in a couple weeks. I'll keep you in my prayers!

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